"Captain of the Enterprise" (justanotherdayinparadise)
10/20/2018 at 08:50 • Filed to: None
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"Captain of the Enterprise" (justanotherdayinparadise)
10/20/2018 at 08:50 • Filed to: None | 7
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So, I’m trying to go on my morning walks again as it is supposed to help with my strong anxiety and depression.
It’s been a really bad week with my mental health. I couldn’t work and only made it to one college class this week. I’m stuck in an avoidance cycle which is providing temporary relief when I get a spike but then hits me even worse the rest of the time and makes the spike even worse. I actually though about dropping out this week and had some suicidal thoughts. I’m feeling a little better today since I went to therapy on Friday and actually started breaking the avoidance cycle by working on class work for the first time this week. I managed 45 minutes of work.
Anyway, I live near a couple of cool auto shops and get to see some cool stuff on my walks. Today there is a pretty cool Lincoln Continental and I took a picture to share with everyone.
Chuckles
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 09:19 |
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I really like that picture, especially because of how cool the clouds look. Well and the cars of course.
I don’t personally have clinical depression, but my partner of 8 years does. She’s in her final semester of grad school and she’s been really struggling. I hope that she finishes school, but at the same time, her health is more important. So if she has to drop out, it’s ok. It’s just sc hool, we’ll figure it out.
That avoidance cycle stuff is tricky. I'm glad that you were able to do some work this week, and hopefully it helped a bit. Feeling productive is good, and if you did 45 minutes this time maybe you'll do an hour next time.
xsnowpig
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 09:26 |
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looks like a nice morning for a walk. it’s something, not everything, but its something.
RacinBob
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 09:38 |
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The good side of me says, do some homework and you will feel better.
The Dr Avoidance side of me says y ou need to get to a pinball machine, now.
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Chuckles
> RacinBob
10/20/2018 at 09:49 |
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I fully support this pinball plan. I bought one earlier this year. No regrets.
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RacinBob
> Chuckles
10/20/2018 at 09:57 |
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I’ve thought about getting one over the years, but man my wrists would just end up hurting...... But I can’t think of a better F’ing off tool for college....
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Chuckles
> RacinBob
10/20/2018 at 10:05 |
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It’s fun to tinker with it, and parts are still plentiful for a late 70s game like mine because most of the inner workings are interchangeable.
Older games like mine have simpler gameplay. There aren't modes, and there is no multiball. It's still a lot of fun, and there are a variety of ways to earn points. There are challenges to work for. But typically I put 10 credits on there and see how long I can make it last. I'm not playing for hours and hours in a day, but it's fun to play for an hour every few days.
Quadradeuce
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 10:06 |
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I just wanted to thank you for sharing and giving a name to something I've struggled with as well. Depression and mental health issues run deep in my family and I see the value of addressing it head on instead of burying it. Keep sharing, you never know how much it might help someone else.
John Norris (AngryDrifter)
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 10:09 |
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Thanks for posting the picture. The old Continental looks to be in pretty good shape.
If you pass by there again get a little bit more of that ‘68 bird.
Best of luck with your mental state. I’m 58. Looking back, so much fun in my life was largely antici pated. I am certain you have a lot of achievement and a lot of joy ahead of you. Both are worthy of looking forward to and making yourself available for it.
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John Norris (AngryDrifter)
> John Norris (AngryDrifter)
10/20/2018 at 10:52 |
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Oops - meant unanticipated.
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Captain of the Enterprise
> John Norris (AngryDrifter)
10/20/2018 at 11:17 |
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Thank you, I think you’re probably right.
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Captain of the Enterprise
> John Norris (AngryDrifter)
10/20/2018 at 11:17 |
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No problem.
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Captain of the Enterprise
> Quadradeuce
10/20/2018 at 11:18 |
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Your welcome, and thank you for the encouragement with sharing. I can’t do that with my family or friends and it helps to get it out. I wish you and your family the very best.
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Captain of the Enterprise
> RacinBob
10/20/2018 at 11:20 |
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It did actually help to do some schoolwork. I used to play an old pinball machine sometimes on family trips to Canada. They were pretty cool. The one at the cottage our family friends rented was evil kineval themed.
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Captain of the Enterprise
> xsnowpig
10/20/2018 at 11:22 |
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Yeah, I think it does help to burn off some of the anxious energy and it was calm and peaceful this morning in Michigan
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Captain of the Enterprise
> Chuckles
10/20/2018 at 11:26 |
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Thank you, I set the exposure for the clouds to get them visible and not blown out.
You give me hope for ever finding a partner. I’m 24 and have never had a relationship or anything yet but it’s nice to hear that there are good people like you out there who can love someone with a mental illness. I have a bad home life with my family and think that I’ll feel better when I do move out. It helped a lot when I got out for the summer but I can’t afford it yet with how expensive college and food and insurance and fuel and tuition and everything is. I think a partner who could accept me for me would really help too and I’d like to be there for them too.
Yeah it did help a bit to actually work on stuff. I’m going to try to do that again today and tomorrow and try to be back in class and work on Monday.
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Chuckles
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 11:43 |
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I struggled with dating in my teens and early twenties, but I met Sam when I was 23. We were friends for over a year before we started dating. Meeting people is hard, but there are good people out there. Sure, it's been challenging at times, but it's worth it. The biggest challenge for me as the one without depression is understanding and accepting that I can't fix her. She's not broken. Just because I'm a good boyfriend doesn't mean that depression goes away. And she isn't dating me to try and treat her depression. But I'm there for her, and hopefully I make her life a little better.
My bird IS the word
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 11:47 |
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My only advice is to struggle on through. I may still not be 100% functional but I’ve learned most of my brain’s tricks. Silly as it sounds I think I was just taking everything, including my o wn life, too personally. Distancing myself emotionally left me kind of empty but at least I'm not sad anymore.
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RacinBob
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/20/2018 at 12:43 |
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See, your day is better already!
pip bip - choose Corrour
> Captain of the Enterprise
10/21/2018 at 07:06 |
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hang in there, it will get better
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Captain of the Enterprise
> pip bip - choose Corrour
10/21/2018 at 14:30 |
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Thank you